By Gauranga Darshan Das

“Mistakes are common! What matters more than a formal apology is
an honest repentance and an attempt to avoid repetition.”

To Err Is Human

Everyone is prone to make mistakes. While some people commit small mistakes, some do big blunders, and some do rarely while some do often; after all, no mortal being is perfect. The scriptures say that in this world, a human being is subject to four kinds of defects namely: (i) imperfect senses, (ii) committing mistakes, (iii) getting illusioned, and (iv) cheating propensity. Thus even very intelligent and advanced personalities commit mistakes at times.

King Pariksit was the glorious descendant of the Pandavas. He was a noble king who was protected by Lord Krsna even within the womb of his mother. He also chastised the personality of Kali and counteracted his influences. Once, he went to the forest for hunting. Afflicted by thirst, he approached the hermitage of a sage called Samika and requested for some water. The sage was absorbed in deep meditation and couldn’t respond to the request of Pariksit Maharaja. Offended by the sage’s neglect, Pariksit took a dead snake and placed it around the neck of Samika Rsi, who was still in trance. He then left the place and went to his palace.

King Citraketu was a great devotee of Lord Sankarsana. He attained the darsana of the Lord in seven days, by chanting a mantra given to him by Narada Muni. Once, he was travelling in his airplane given by Lord Visnu. He arrived at a place where Lord Siva was sitting, embracing Parvati on his lap, in an assembly of great sages and other exalted persons. Seeing this, Citraketu laughed and said that ordinary men embrace their wives in private, but how could Lord Siva do that in public in front of the sages.

Intentional Vs. Accidental Mistakes

Although committing mistakes is common for a human, one should at least make sure that one doesn’t do them purposefully. Incidentally or accidentally one may err sometimes, but premeditated mistakes done deliberately will have more serious repercussions. Honest people do mistakes accidently and do not justify them, but sincerely apologize for them. Dishonest people do wrong things knowingly, yet instead of admitting them they try to cover them up or justify them.

Srila Prabhupada writes, “The Lord is always prepared to excuse His devotee, but if a devotee takes advantage of the Lord’s leniency and purposefully commits mistakes again and again, the Lord will certainly punish him by letting him fall down into the clutches of the illusory energy. One must strongly adhere to the lotus feet of the Lord in devotional service. Then one’s position is secure.” (SB 5.18.4 Purport)

What Pariksit Maharaja did was certainly a mistake, however, it was due to his fatigue, thirst and hunger. Thus it was totally circumstantial. One proof was that he never insulted any sages or brahmanas before or after this incident. Another proof was his honest repentance for what he did.

Citraketu’s criticizing of Lord Siva was also a mistake, but he did it with a good intent. He knew that exalted Siva would not be affected by such uncommon behavior. However, Citraketu was concerned that a common man might misunderstand and criticize or disrespect Siva, and thus become a victim of offending the great demigod. Citraketu wanted to protect the honor of Lord Siva and protect common people from offending Siva.

Regret, But Don’t Forget

Mistake is a mistake if one fails to learn a lesson from it. A sane person is not one who never commits mistakes. When a sane person does a mistake, he sincerely regrets for it, honestly apologizes for it, genuinely attempts to rectify it or atone for it and truly endeavors not to repeat it. He also takes responsibility for the consequences without shifting blame.

Pariksit Maharaja, after returning to his palace, reflected on his act of garlanding Samika Rsi with a dead snake. Srila Prabhupada writes, “The pious King [Pariksit] regretted his accidental improper treatment of the powerful brahmana, who was faultless. Such repentance is natural for a good man like the King, and such repentance delivers a devotee from all kinds of sins accidentally committed. The devotees are naturally faultless. Accidental sins committed by a devotee are sincerely regretted, and by the grace of the Lord all sins unwillingly committed by a devotee are burnt in the fire of repentance.” (SB 1.19.1 P)

Genuine regret or remorse, when done in a positive spirit brings out auspiciousness, just as Pariksit’s regret made him turn towards God and God’s representatives with humility. But unjust and egoistic regret could lead to depression or destructive tendencies.

Remembering one’s mistakes is beneficial in one sense. Because, when one does good work, there is a possibility of becoming proud of one’s accomplishments and think high of oneself. But if one is aware that he also has some shortcomings and honestly remembers one’s earlier mistakes, one really   can’t be proud. This is in no way to discourage rejoicing one’s success, but it helps to keep one’s feet on the ground by not becoming unnecessarily puffed up and look down upon others. By committing mistakes, one becomes humble and by remembering them one remains humble.

Expecting and Accepting the Reaction

An honest person is prepared to suffer the consequences of one’s misdeeds without trying to escape. It’s natural to expect a punishment for one’s mistake, but Pariksit not only expected a punishment, but being such a man of integrity, he desired a punishment. He considered that if he were not punished, he would be encouraged to do such mistakes again, or his family members might be punished for his wrong deed. A devotee doesn’t want others to suffer for his mistakes.

sa cintayann ittham athasrnod yatha
muneh sutokto nirrtis taksakakhyah
sa sadhu mene na cirena taksaka-
nalam prasaktasya virakti-karanam

While the King was thus repenting, he received news of his imminent death, which would be due to the bite of a snake-bird, occasioned by the curse spoken by the sage’s son. The King accepted this as good news, for it would be the cause of his indifference toward worldly things. (SB 1.19.4)

A student of Samika Rsi named Gauramukha came and informed Pariksit that he has been cursed to die in seven days by Srngi, the son of Samika Rsi. Pariksit happily received the curse seeing it as the arrangement of the Supreme Lord and retired form his role as an emperor and heard Srimad Bhagavatam from Sukadeva Gosvami.

When King Citraketu criticized Lord Siva, Parvati became upset with his arrogant behavior, and chastised him just as a mother chastises a mischievous son. Citraketu should have noticed the elevated position of Lord Siva and restrained himself from criticizing him in public. So, Parvati became angry and cursed him to become a demon. Citraketu didn’t protest but accepted the curse gracefully and left. He became the great Vrtrasura in his next life.

Why and Why Not Apologize?

Apologizing and begging forgiveness are natural responses of a sane person, who realizes that he has done a mistake. That apology is not a formality, but is born out of a sincere regret for one’s own misdeed and empathy towards others’ feelings.

Pariksit regretted for his mistake, but didn’t go to Samika Rsi and apologize. Because Samika Rsi himself was so remorseful that a great monarch and devotee like Pariksit has been cursed by his son unnecessarily. Pariksit’s mistake was minor but Sringi’s punishment was severe, highly disproportionate to the offense. Samika Rsi’s embarrassment was clear to Pariksit when the news of the curse was communicated to him. Therefore, Pariksit didn’t apologize to not further increase the embarrassment of the sage.

King Citraketu, when cursed by Parvati, immediately got down from his airplane, offered obeisances to Parvati and apologized, addressing her as mother. A chaste wife becomes angry and upset when her husband is disrespected. Thus Parvati felt offended to the criticism of Siva by Citraketu. And acknowledging her feelings, Citraketu told her that he didn’t mean to disrespect Siva, but because she was displeased by his behavior, he begged forgiveness from her.

atha prasadaye na tvam
sapa-moksaya bhamini
yan manyase hy asadhuktam
mama tat ksamyatam sati

O mother, you are now unnecessarily angry, but since all my happiness and distress are destined by my past activities, I do not plead to be excused or relieved from your curse. Although what I have said is not wrong, please let whatever you think is wrong be pardoned. (SB 6.17.21)

In the case of Pariksit Maharaja, Samika Rsi was not offended, but embarrassed. In the case of Citraketu Maharaja, Parvati was offended and angry. So, in not apologizing and apologizing, Pariksit and Citraketu, only cared for the feelings of Samika and Parvati respectively. Being exalted devotees, they didn’t consider how they were cursed so severely for their small mistakes. This showed their detachment, maturity and dependence on the Supreme Lord.

Mistakes of great souls: In fact, the unprecedented behavior of the virtuous Pariksit and devoted Citraketu were a part of the divine plan of the Supreme Lord. By the Lord’s will, Pariksit was put in an awkward situation, so that the Holy Scripture Srimad Bhagavatam could make its appearance. To purify a slight tinge of pride in King Citraketu and quickly bring him to the spiritual world within one short lifetime, the Lord inspired Parvati to curse him. By these arrangements in the lives of His pure devotees, the Lord also taught us beautiful life lessons.

The Attitude Behind Apology

Expression is important, but the emotion behind that expression is more important. The internal attitude behind one’s external apology shows how sincere is that apology. Apology isn’t a ritual, but it’s a heartfelt expression of one’s honest emotion.

Confession as a profession: Some admit their mistakes and apologize for them, but later repeat the same mistakes. Of course, no one can become perfect overnight. It takes some time to come out of a bad habit and thus one may repeatedly commit mistakes, but a sincere intent to overcome them will eventually bring them the right consciousness and behavior. But if one has no intention to rectify one’s mistakes, but just formally or ritualistically says ‘sorry’ and continues them, he is considered a professional sinner. This is compared to the bath of an elephant who puts dirt on his body after having taken a nice bath in the river.

Clarification Vs. justification: One may clarify the circumstances under which one happened to commit an accidental mistake. One may clarify one’s intentions behind one’s apparent unpleasant deed. But denying one’s faults and justifying one’s misdeeds by philosophizing is not the nature of a sober person. Citraketu clarified his intentions to Mother Parvati, but didn’t justify his actions; he readily accepted her curse as his destiny and respectfully departed.

Offense after apology: Sometimes, mistakes or offenses are not innocent and circumstantial, but are out of one’s prolonged and deep rooted envy and anger towards others. One such example is Prajapati Daksa who envied Lord Siva, who was more exalted than him. Once he publicly criticized Siva and cursed him. His offensive mentality later made him even neglect and disrespect his own daughter Sati, the wife of Siva, who then committed suicide. Angry Siva sent Virabhadra, who beheaded Daksa. Thereafter, upon Lord Brahma’s request, Lord Siva kindly revived the life of Daksa. Daksa repented for his offense and begged forgiveness from Lord Siva. Yet, due to the traces of his offensive attitude and behavior towards Siva, in his next life he again committed a similar offense towards the great sage Narada Muni by criticizing and cursing him.

Sincerity in apology: If one’s apology isn’t sincere, one may commit similar mistakes again. Once Indra, the King of the heaven, became so puffed up of his position. To humble him, Lord Krsna stopped his worship and encouraged the residents of Vrndavana to worship the Gvardhana Hill. Indra became angry and caused devastating rains to destroy Vrndavana. But Krsna lifted Govardhana and saved His people. Indra realized his mistake towards the Supreme Lord Krsna and apologized him. Krsna gave him a caution and forgave him. However, Indra’s apology wasn’t sincere as he committed a similar mistake again later. Once, Krsna went to the heaven and wanted to take a special tree called Parijata to satisfy His beloved queen Satyabhama. At that time, Indra protested and got into a fight with Krsna.

Sincere Apology Attracts Forgiveness

Samika Rsi regretted for his son’s overreacting and cursing Pariksit. Parvati also felt ashamed for having cursed Citraketu for his small mistake. When others humble themselves and sincerely apologize, a noble person wholeheartedly forgives them without maintaining further grudges.

The hope for someone who accidentally does a mistake is ‘forgiveness’ from the other person. When we commit a mistake, we hope and expect to be forgiven. Similarly, when others do some mistakes, we should be willing to forgive them. If the Supreme Lord Krnsa takes all our mistakes seriously and doesn’t forgive us, who in the entire universe can give us shelter? Our worship of Krsna is often filled with many shortcomings and mistakes. Thus it is recommended that we always beg forgiveness from Him after worshiping Him.

aparadha-sahasrani kriyante ‘har-nisam maya
daso ‘ham iti mam matva ksamasva madhusudana

Thousands of offenses are performed by me day and night. But thinking of me as Your servant, kindly forgive those, O Madhusūdana.

The Lord’s forgiving nature and mercy are our only hope. Otherwise with all one’s imperfections, one cannot be over confident to offer a flawless worship and win His favor.

pratijsa tava govinda na me bhaktah pranasyati
iti samsmrtya samsmrtya pranan sandharayamy aham

O Govinda, Your promise is that Your devotee will never perish. By remembering this over and over again, I am able to retain my life-airs.

Making mistakes is common. But an honest person realizes them, regrets for them, rectifies them, remembers them and doesn’t repeat them. He honestly apologizes for his mistakes, not a ritual but as a heartfelt gesture towards the effected party.

Gauranga Darshan Das, a disciple of His Holiness Radhanath Swami, is dean of the Bhaktivedanta Vidyapitha (www.vidyapitha.in) at ISKCON Govardhan Eco Village (GEV), outside Mumbai. He has written study guides, including Bhagavata Subodhini and Caitanya Subodhini, and teaches Bhagavatam courses at several places in India. He also oversees the deity worship at GEV.

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